Another Beautiful Soul

Another beautiful soul has gone forever.

She was very warm, sweet, generous and super multitalented woman. I have known her through blogging too. I still remember she generously sent me vegetable seeds and flower seeds via mail because we shared the same interest in gardening. She lived somewhere in KL, while I am here in KK. Although I have never meet her in person, her generosity touched my heart. And her multitalents in baking, painting, sewing, gardening and blogging always inspired me.

Now I have lost two fellow blogger friends (if you have read my previous post, you'll noticed). It was really a sad situation, but we all know, God loves them more. I am sure they are in a good place now.

Dear Cath, you must be in a good hand now. I know you must be resting in God's house. Thank you for the good memories. I will always remember your generosity and how talented you are. You were one of friend that I always searching for inspiration. You are the definition of strong woman and never give up. You'll be missed forever. Rest in peace.

I am Vaccinated

                     

                                                   I have completed Covid-19 vaccination. 

The 1st dose was on 30 July 2021. To be honest, during the process of injection, I didn't feel anything. It was a fast process. And thank God, there was no side effect. I can feel my arm a bit sore at the part of where the injection took place (only for 1 day), other than that overall was ok.

The vaccination took place at KDCA, Penampang. I must say I was lucky because the process was very smooth. Only few people queuing up during the vaccination process. Even though the vaccination includes up with those who were also taking the 2nd dose. My only concern was, if there were too many people queuing up, chances of the Covid-19 virus to spread out might be high. Praise to God , everything was fine.

While the 2nd dose was taken on 20 August 2021. I have been experiencing a side effect from the 2nd dose though. I felt painful on my joints and the whole body felt tired. I have to lie on the bed the whole day. Thanks to my husband willing to take care of the kids. The side effect lasted for a day only. Thank God. The next day I able to do daily activities as usual.

Towards herd immunity. I have done my part. Have you done yours?

Beautiful Soul

Did I mentioned in my last post that I have lost friends and relatives this year?..

It was devastating a friend that've I known for years has gone forever. She was our fellow blogger too. During the years when we all, the circle of blogger friends actively updating our blogs. I still remember that this friend was so close. She was a cheerful person. We met in person few times, regularly chit-chats through FBs and Whatsapp. You can't tell she's sick. When in fact actually she was battling with cancer. 

She never tell anyone that she is sick or even her sickness become worse. She always happy and cheerfully type of person. She was strong like that and always stay positive. It was very very sad that she leaves us without saying good bye. It was really fast. I cried. Really really heartbreaking. In addition, this pandemic season, you cannot simply come and visit to pay last respect. What a sad situation.

Beautiful soul. That's how I remember her. 

Dear Just, 

I know you are resting well now up there. Thank you for the beautiful memories. I am glad that we had become friends and to know you is a blessing. A beautiful soul, strongest and positive women I've ever known.

The Year 2021

It has been 3 years. I haven't up any entries in this blog. There were so much things happened throughout these 3 years. 

This year itself, I received so much devastated news. Lost few friends and relatives. The year where we were fighting with the pandemic Covid-19. In fact, the pandemic started last year somewhere in January to February (in Malaysia) and the government have to enforced lockdown to the whole nation in March 2020. Many of the citizens lost their jobs. The small business also affected, some of the businesses were closed down. School also closed down. Many of us have to work from home. Kids learn through online class.

Many also lost their life because of the Covid-19. Just two days ago, I received news from my sister in-law that our aunty who lives in Kepayan has died from Covid-19. She suffered from kidney failure and runs dialysis regularly. Getting worse after infected with Covid. And passed away at quarantine centre.  

Life is so fragile. When i see the numbers of those who loss due Covid-19. In a blink of eyes. Today you are here with friends and family, tomorrow gone without saying good bye. It is depressing just the thought of this.

Therefore please treasure the relationship you have with your family. Spend more time with them. Especially during this pandemic era, please follow the SOPs strictly. Take care of yourself and your family, always practice hygiene and stay at home if there is no urgent things to do outside. And most importantly, please get vaccinated. It's free. One of our effort to fight the deathly illness. If you are not doing it for yourself, do it for your loved ones. They deserve it.

Kiki The Cat

We adopted a cat on May 2018. And my son gave a name, Kiki. I have been thinking to adopt a cat for my son as a pet since last year. But we cannot do that as we were living in an apartment and pet is not allowed. I posted a status on my facebook about adopting a cat. A yoga class friend approached me with her kittens by sending me photos of her kittens and i was really interested with Kiki's color. So i decided to bought Kiki from her. Sylvia said she will send to me this kitten when he reached 2 months old, because by this age he would wean from her mother. He was well trained to pee and poo in a litter box so it was easy for me. Because this is my first time adopting a cat. And i know nothing about a cat. So every now and then i will update Kiki's condition with her and will ask things like food, grooming, vaccination etc.

My son was the one who is really excited and always play with Kiki whenever he is at home especially when he came back from school.

Now that it is almost 2 months Kiki staying with us, the home feels alive with the existence of this cat in our house. Kiki is only a kitten but because of his breed was a mixed of Maine Coon and Persian, his size is quite big for his age.

Kiki is very active and playful. He got big eyes and soft orange color fur. His behavior is like a hunter because every things that are moving, he will slowly make a move to catch that moving thing. It was funny and all these characteristic seems new for me. And now i am thinking to adopt another cat haha..

Moved to a new house

Most importantly, a very good news to us. We have been living in an apartment for almost 10 years. And I'm dying to move to a landed house. Living in an apartment on the highest floor without elevator. I am sick of climbing up those stairs every day. And of course especially to our special boy. He gets bored and likes to move around. So when he came back from school every day he would cry and will seek for attention. It is better for him to move freely and play outside like cycling or something like that to channel out his energy because he is one active boy. Now that we are already moved to a new house, I am so grateful. New place, new environment, and our son is much happier now. 

Well, i have to end this post here now. Will continue later. I have to cook for lunch before picking up my boy.. See ya!

Welcome 2018

oh wow... 

I just browsed my blog again and i noticed that i have not posted any entries since year 2016.  And now we are moving to the midst of 2018. Two years plus, that was a long period of time i have been hibernating from blogging.

Lately, i have been thinking of blogging again and today is the day i open this blog. Honestly, i am really missing the day when i blog actively. See if i can continue this journey of blogging again. I think i got a lot of stories to share. A lot of stories playing in my mind right now.

But i must end this entry here right now. Going to fetch up my boy at school. See ya! catch up with you later.

Autism Awareness Month - Part 1

Last month which is April 2016, was the month of Autism Awareness. Hubby and I decided to join some event that related to this Autism thingy to show our support.

We joined the Walk for Autism on 2nd April 2016 and 7km Autism Fun Run on 24th April 2016.

The Walk for Autism was held at Perdana Park Tanjung Aru. This was our first time event. We haven't join any event like this before. So we brought Gabriel together in this event, our one and only son. I was amazed that he had fun while walking together with the crowd. No tantrum or cranky. Just being himself, a happy-go-lucky boy. We're so blessed to have a son like him, because he is so special to us. 

The route was from Perdana Park and up to Plaza Tanjung Aru, to the Balai Polis Tanjung Aru, up to SM La salle School and SM Stella Maris Tanjung Aru, Dewan La Salle and walk again all the way until we reach at Perdana Park again. 

We are so proud with our lil boy. He could walk all the way until the finishing line without asking for a carry to his daddy. He even ran towards the finishing line. The walk took about 1 hour long and it was about 3km route (i wasn't really sure how long the route cause they didn't mention it while we registered ).

So here are some of the photos captured during the event. 

Gabriel is so excited ! :)

I stumbled upon a long lost friend, Adelene. She was my ex-classmate during primary school somewhere in 1988-1993.

 Just right before the walk, wefie together! :)

Our Chief Minister, Datuk Seri Panglima Musa Hj Aman launching the event.

Like Daddy Like Son.. :)

Just right after the walk. So thirsty.. :)

Gabriel meet his teacher here. Teacher Billy.. 

All blue.. The blue spirit.. Thumbs up to all the participants.

A memorable photo at the finishing line.. All wet with sweat.. :) 

Thank you for reading this post. I'll continue with the Part 2 post soon. The part where we joined the 7km Autism Fun Run at Bukit Padang. 

Till then, have a great week ahead. GOD BLESS!

I Once Fall But Rise Up Again (Part 2)

Hi how are you all today?.. It's Friday and the Chinese New Year celebration is just around the corner. Wishing all to the Chinese celebrating Chinese New Year, Gong Xi Fa Cai. I'm sure most of you are in holiday mood especially those who celebrating will do some shopping for the festive season. Shopping for new Cheongsams, Mandarin Oranges, CNY decos and so on, am i right?.. :)

We are so lucky here in Malaysia with the diversity of races, there are a lot of public holiday and festivals to be celebrated in a year. I love Christmas Day not only because it's an obligation as a Christian, but because of the surroundings and family gatherings, Hari Raya Aidilfitri i love the food especially at Bazaar Ramadan, Chinese New Year with its Angpows, Mandarin Oranges and its traditional cakes. We are so blessed in Malaysia, right? :)

Well, to continue my story from the previous post. Most of friends were asking me, what happened actually?.. What's the cause?.. 

So, to clarify those questions. It was actually, i mean I can say that it's all in God's hand. God controls everything. I have come to the fact that, maybe this is a plan that God has granted us to remind us about something in life. To teach me and my husband about something in life that we haven't discover before. This was our 1st experience although i have experienced miscarriage in my 8 weeks of pregnancy in 2008. It was my first pregnancy. Which we named the baby, Andrea. 

Baby Gloria, which we named our beautiful princess was born sleeping last year. It was at my 25 weeks of pregnancy. 

We were just arrived in Ranau on Monday, 25 May 2015, after spending the weekend in KK. We had been doing a lot of travelling from Ranau to KK this time around because most of our things to settled are in KK. I was very tired with the travelling but I let my mouth shut. Because hubby was too busy with his work and at the same time he was too busy too to find a gas cylinder at that time. There was no shop selling gas cylinders unless you want to change with another empty one. To the fact that we just moved to Ranau, we have to get a new one. It was a hard time for us to find a gas cylinder, so we decided to find in KK instead.

And on Wednesday, 27 May 2015, as i woke up early in the morning, I felt empty. I did not feel the baby is moving. She just like stagnant there. I told hubby and he said maybe she's sleeping. But deep inside my heart, there is something wrong because i felt so empty as if i don't connected with this baby. I don't feel the bond anymore. Feels like i am not pregnant anymore.

On the next day, i still did not feel the baby kicking and i decided to go to clinic for an ultrasound scan. Unfortunately, hubby was not in nearby town, he went outstation far from our rental house. So, we went for ultrasound on the next day.

The doctor broke the sad news, there's no heartbeat. He repeated, there's no heartbeat anymore. I don't believe it at first. The doctor said, placenta is still intact and the baby looks find in the ultrasound scan but the heartbeat just stopped. I was like, my world has turn dark. Feels like my heart stop beating. I burst to tears the moment i went out from the doctor's room and i still remember hubby gave his shoulder to me to lean on, to cry on like a little girl.

As we back to our rental house, hubby packed things right away as he said let me stay in the car with Gabriel, and he'll do the packing. We decided to drive back to KK right away to meet my gynae, Dr Ramesh at JMC. I went out from the car and entered the house cause hubby is taking too long for packing, and for the first time ever i saw hubby stand still there and shed tears, i hugged him from behind and we cry together. :(

I delivered safely on 4th June 2015. She was so beautiful and cute. Gloria Isabel R. Makulim, so precious and yet God loves her more. You will be always remembered my dear baby Gloria. Mummy and Daddy will always remember you, love you and praying for you and your big sister, Andrea. Don't forget to pray for Mummy, Daddy and your brother Gabriel too okay. Please tell Lord Jesus to take care of us and may one fine day we will meet again. :)

I Once Fall But Rise Up Again (Part 1)

Hi all, 

This would my first post in 2016. So many things happened lately that i haven’t update here for so long since October last year. I went silent to keep myself some space and to reflect all the things that happened in my life. I am grateful that God has granted me strength to face that difficult moments. And to my husband who always been there through my dark time, and to my little boy, Gabriel. He is the pillar of my life. 

I was deep in sorrow. We have lost a baby girl in June 4th 2015. My life has been upside down since then. I questioned God over and over again, the universe, the surrounding, why this had to happened to me? Why me?.. The questions remain unanswered until the very end of the year 2015 in which i climbed up again after i fell down to the lowest point of my life. I shut all things including social medias, I refused to communicate with anyone, i shed tears for 3 days, weeks and months. Until at some point, postpartum depression attacked me. 

In the meantime, we were so busy to move to Ranau. My husband has been sent to work station in Ranau, so Gabriel and I followed him. So, there in Ranau I remain silent, trying to calm myself, praying everyday so that God granted me huge strength to face the coming days.

The year 2015 was the toughest year for us. We've been through couple of sadness moments and a little out of track in our financial. 

However, above all that, Prayer is the most powerful thing to do. I can see that God is working in my life, in our life. That God never leaves me, He walks with me and teaches me about the strength that once hidden in me. It reveals like never before and to remind me there are 2 Angels up there watching over me, my husband and Gabriel.

Gabriel 2nd day at school

Gabriel second day at school was a way better. I gave him a bottle of milk and his daddy bring him to pee at school's toilet before sending him to class. The fact that he was very excited to enter the class, makes me very happy. I bet every parent will feel the same. 

Thank God he was finally slowly getting use to go to school. He was excited with a lot of friends and of course there are toys in the class too. I was standing next to the door and when he arrived at his class, he straightly went into the class and played the toys.  

Gabriel with red neck shirt was really focus playing with the toy

He was really focus with the toys. He didn't care with mummy anymore 

I am definitely happy with the progress and hoping he'll learn more exciting things in class everyday. Prayer for my little boy may God bless him abundantly.

Gabriel 1st Day at School

On last Monday, 1st September 2015 was the 1st day our Gabriel went to kindergarten at Tadika Kasih Bonda St Benedict, Ranau. He was afraid at first, trying to find us while we sneak on him from the school's office. He was crying but not for so long.

I was crying, my heart was breaking to see he's crying but i was firm to let he learn about it. I know he is a strong boy. Sooner or later he will learn to be independent and growing up to a brave boy. Gabriel is a very special boy for us. Though he is delay in his speech but i have faith in God that one day he will become a very talkative boy and i know for sure that God had His own plan to our beloved boy. 

 

 

The Sister trying to comforts Gabriel during breakfast time. He doesn't want to eat. Maybe because this is his first time and not used to it. After few attempts, Gabriel managed to calm down and ate his breakfast. Good job Sister! :)

 

I stayed at the school's canteen the whole day to see his progress at school. The thing that worrying me the most is that how would he tell the teachers when he wants to pee. I had potty train him for 4 weeks now and he is doing very find. Because i am his mother and staying with him at home for 24 hours, i know how and when exactly he wants to pee or poo. He would stand in front of me or pull my hand trying to let me know something and that is his way to tell me that he wants to pee. 

And this is very new to him when at class. But i hope teacher will cope with this and Gabriel too. I prayed for the best and may Gabriel learns a new thing everyday.

 

 

 

 

Silky Smooth Hair

I need to use conditioner when i wash my hair. The fact that my hair was once colored many months ago, conditioner is a must otherwise my hair will gone frizzy and hard to comb. 

So, i asked hubby to buy for me a conditioner. He bought me this Pantene Silky Smooth Conditioner and i was eager to try it.

Pantene Silky Smooth Conditioner 500ml at RM11.70 bought from Watson. Thanks hubby for buying me this. :)

Yes, i could feel my hair smooth and silky, and really like it. I am satisfied with the outcome.

I have read in an article that hair treatment is a must too. Because i am bound with taking care of my son and very seldom to go out for saloon, a hair conditioner will do for now. :)

So what's your hair care routine?.. Please share, i like to know. :)

A Fruitful Habit

Because hubby got this habit which is, he's not into using coins and prefer to use notes when buying things.

He'll keep the coins inside his trouser's pocket and later he'll put the coins in an old used can after he arrived home.

Until last Friday we decided to count all those coins.

A Rare Act Of Kindness

At a time when some refuse to take care of their own parents, one man took care of a stranger of a different race in his own home for 10 years.Office boy R. Rajagopal, 52, bumped into Low Saw Piow, 67, in Jalan Pudu in 2004. Rajagopal recognized the frail old man who used to work for a building contractor doing a project near the bank where he worked. 

At last, I found you

Yes, at last i found my fav raya cookies, the ulat bulu.

If you happened to read my previous post, you would know it.

I found this at Bazaar Ramadhan in Pekan Ranau on last Saturday and it is RM30 per jar. 

Oh Raya Cookies!

I've been buying few type of raya cookies lately. Especially the ever famous Makmur cookies. Since these days are the Ramadan month which is the fasting season for the Muslims in preparation for Hari Raya, cookies and bazaar Ramadan are everywhere now.

To be honest i really like to shop and walking around at bazaar Ramadhan because of the various of food that have been selling there. It is favorite season ever eventhough i'm not a Muslim, but the fact that Malaysia is a multiracial country, we are blessed given such experience to getting to know each other races and religion. 

Inspiration of the Day

Life is So Unpredictable

Life is so unpredictable.

Anything could be happened in a blink of eye.

Therefore, surrender everything to God and make everything the best everyday.

You'll never know what you might lost today.. It could be the most precious thing in your life.

Cherish everyday.. Cherish every moment.. 

I rest my heart to You oh Lord. Have mercy on me and please strengthen my heart to move on..

My boy is now growing up so fast.

I'm all emotional about him growing up that fast. 

I was wondering how is he when he enters primary school.. No more kisses and hugs i guess?.. I must be missing those someday..

I'll cherish every moment now. I hope you grows well and i'll promise to be the best mom to you. 

I might not the best mother in the world, but i know deep in my heart i'll be the best mother to you.. 

Welcoming 2015

Oh my haha.. 

I think it is too late for this post on welcoming the year 2015 LOL. And this is the very first post for the year 2015 after a long pause. Trust me i am really missing this blog but so much things happened lately. I miss my readers and all your feedbacks too. And my fellow bloggers as well, of course. :)

Wow, it is the month of March now so i am planning to blog more this year compared to last year. Wish me luck! haha.. 

So what is my current update?.. What is happening lately?.. Mostly my followers in IG and Fb would know, but i just wanna make it official in this blog.

So here are the current things that I need to cope in the year 2015 :- 

1. Our Lil Boy Entered Playschool.

My not so lil' boy, Gabriel Aiden is now enrolled in playschool since January 2015. He'll be 4 in August, so we decided to let him to the playschool so that he could meet some new friends and learning to fit in some new environment in preparation for kindergarten next year. 

So far, so good but it is normal right in the beginning he was scared to enter the school. He cried out loud and my heart breaks to see this. But this is for his own good. We want him to learn and interact with other kids. 

This is really a new experience for us (Hubby and I) for sending our son to school and we were trying to cope this new thing. Daily routine to send and pick up our son from school now become part of our life just similar with other parents. We have to alert and wake up early in the morning to send our son to school.  

And when Hubby is not around (because his work now based in Ranau), I'll played the roll to send our son to school and i have to wake up early in the morning..huhu! No more honeymoon like last year hehe!

2. Our Lil Boy is going to be a Big Brother soon! :)

Yes, it is a good news right?.. hehe... My due date is in by the end of August 2015 (according to the latest ultrasound scan) and it was really coincidence right?.. Gabriel also was born in the month of August. :D

I'll be 15 weeks pregnant on this coming Saturday (7th March) and I can't wait for the next prenatal visit to scan my belly again. I'm eager to know the gender of this baby. I guess in the next visit i would be 18 weeks and suppose the gender could be discovered by now. :)

We are hoping for a baby girl, but all is in the hand of God. It's a God's plan. We accept it with warm heart. :)

Oh my, it is 12.15pm now. I have to get ready to pick up Gabriel from school. Catch up with you again later! :)

Thanks for visiting here. And oh ya, Happy Chap Goh Mei to those celebrating! :)

Have a great week ahead. God bless. :)