Today, i suddenly started to feel new breath is coming in my life. As before, I always thinking whether I can face the pressure in my life alone. It has been tying in my heart for a long time. Someone who bothered by any type of pressure in their life will trying to get rid from it as soon as possible. Same as me.
It happened after meeting session in the office. Suddenly I felt new breath in my heart. A courage and a new spirit. It leads me to think that where are all these came from. Why i have this kind of feeling? What is it actually? Why I feel like this?.. Something blowing in my mind that widen my thinking about future. I always being pressured of thinking regarding of what I should do for future. I want to change the fact for what I have today. I want a new life. I want to be a new person with successful career and so on. So how can I achieve all these? I feel very tired whenever I think about it.
Suddenly out of nowhere, I feel blessed. My husband called me around 11 am. He told me that the manager of the bank called him. Our home loan is finally approved. After waiting for a long time, this is one of our plan that I always wanted. I wanted own house and live in it together with my beloved hubby with joy and happy without bothered by others.
Now i know. God give me some hope. He gives me hope so that i should not feel pressured every day and i should trying to accept that all things happened according to what He want, not what i want. I should try to listen to Him more. Yes we know that, we are the one who can plan for the good of ourselves and for our own future. We are the painter of our own life, the decision is all in our hands. But at the end of the day, it is all in God's hand. He know what best for us. And it is very important to be grateful for what we have today.